My grace is in place.
Comforting words for this season of my life. Just now am I starting to feel like things are getting back to normal in my life. Which surprisingly, I have come to strongly dislike!
Before Africa I couldn't imagine a single thing changing in my daily schedule. I loved every part of what I did and couldn't get enough. Still do, just trying to adjust to it.
I can't seem to find my place. I know what to do and where to go, but doing, going and checking it off the list is not enough. Which is basically how I've been operating these past 2 weeks.
I've realized how dependent I've become on my job, church ministry and friends/family through this change. And I know that God used Africa to flip it around for me. I see that now.
The feeling of disconnection between these 3 important things in my life has caused me to depend fully on God. And in many prayers, begging Him to keep moving me from glory to glory.
At our youth prayer this last Wednesday, God spoke into my life through Pastor Tim. He said, "Your grace is in place." So I thank God for grace. I thank God that I can grow to resemble Him and that even though sin is always present, through His blood nothing stands in my way. I'm thankful, yet again, that He has chosen me to be the one He moves from glory to glory, and place to place-- literally. I know I won't be in one place permanently in this season of my life. He is going to take me places. And He will give me grace everyday to live through the day. He will place His grace in the area and situation to abound and take control, so that I feel and know His presence is present.
I am reconnected to someone I never would have thought to be disconnected from, Jesus.
I'm watching out for my dependency to fall on Him and not on His blessings (job, ministry, family/friends). I've learned that God takes away certain blessings and brings in the new. I won't always have the spiritual support in a good work environment, I won't always have the same ministry experience, and even though I will always hold close my friends and family at heart, they won't always satisfy my needs and my wants. But my Jesus satisfies. And He is the same everyday, ready to pour more into my life and to move where I move and feel what I feel. In Him is where I find my place.
